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Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Failure and Moving On

Ok, so Insanity was apparently a little to insane for me. I stopped doing the workouts a while ago, but have been too ashamed to post about it. After that I didn't care what I put in my body and guess what?! Yea I gained what little I lost back again. Who'da thunk it. I didn't feel well in any sense during that time. I still wanted to lose weight, but was in the rut of having just failed again. Then about a week or two ago I thought of something that I hadn't seen in a long time (because I don't have cable) You Are What You Eat by Gillian McKeith. I looked it up on Youtube and sure enough there it was. Crappy second hand copies of it, but it was there anyway.

After watching the episodes again I was like omg that's me on every one of them. I'm drinking too much soda, eating too much crap. I went to Britain's Channel 4 website and found a bunch of recipes and meal plans for healthy living. Through all of this I came to the (obvious now that I look back on it) conclusion that I just want to be healthy. I have PCOS (Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome). Not sure if I've ever mentioned that. It's a syndrome that affects my ovaries due to too much weight. I could be facing infertility in the future if I don't get my weight under control. One of the most notable symptoms I've had is an absence of periods. I haven't had one in over a year....ugh. I just want to be healthy, if that means losing a bunch of weight great, but that's not the end all be all. I'm tired of weight loss gimicks. From now on I'm going to think about what I put in my body in its nutrient value, not calories. What is it going to do for my body? Gillian has provided free of charge all the information I need to eat healthfully and consciously on the Channel 4 website and I am dam sure going to take advantage of it.

I started the meal plan on Monday and just to see how I'm doing, I weighed myself today and have already lost 4 lbs (going from 302 to 298) so in a few days I'm already at what it took me weeks to get to on the insanity plan. I am so excited :) I've already noticed I have more energy and I know following this path will lead to a happier future.

In the blogosphere on the other hand, I'm not going to be treating it as a job any more. I'm looking for a local job at the moment. I really hope I get a job at Subway. It'd be nice working around lots of veggies lol. I'll actually be treating this as a blog. If people read it, great. If I make a little money at it, great (cause I'm still poor as hell). My goal is to be healthy and it's a site better than failing.

Happy health to everyone


  1. Hi Erin,
    All the very best with your new plans. Take care.
    Judy from Jamaica

  2. Hi Erin. We're the same age and have similar ideas about shifting some weight and being healthy. If you want to buddy up follow my twitter @superskimme or head on over to my blog: http://neglectheflesh.blogspot.com/



  3. Hey Erin!
    I tried the Insanity program after I read you doing it. It was ridiculous. I had a work-out buddy, and we both died from it. For me, it was about strength and conditioning, but the Insanity program made my muscles so sore that I was worried about underperforming at work. I'm stoked for your new healthy outlook :)

  4. Thanks a lot to all of you and Anonymous good luck with the program :) it's a good program just a little too intense for someone 300 lbs and I'm glad I was able to have a positive influence on someone :) it makes blogging worth while!


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